So I did something on a whim Tuesday... Felt foolish afterwards but the next day got my first sign that Obsession enjoys my company as much as I do his. I sent him a hand written note, scanned to his email since his name is right next to mine on the scanner/printer at work.
His response is this...
J
When you leave it is going to
suck around here…
You are going to be missed…
I'm not gonna lie, I read it a million times. I refer to him as Work Hottie to a friend of mine and I thought about changing his name but Obsession seems to fit so much more. Seriously I couldn't get it out of my head and it's not *that* big of a deal. Why am I obsessing over it? So much so that I lost sleep the night before last because of it. Well I'm not sure if it was because of it, but it was the first thing on my brain when I'd wake up.
Anyways, remember how early on I kept saying he doesn't remember what we talk about? Well now he remembers things, and some things I don't remember until he reminds me! To me, when someone takes the energy to focus enough to remember what you say it means you are important. I've always placed value on that. Well now he's doing it. He even remembers little things. Making me feel like something in him has suddenly placed value on me and now he's remembering or even focusing on our conversations enough to remember. Which again makes me feel better than it probably should. Nope... the message above takes the cake... I'm reading WAY too much into it. lol I guess the reason I am is that he already has so much fun with his coworkers. I'm always hearing them laugh and tell me their crazy stories. The fact that he'll even notice my absence is making me read more into it than I should. That and I'm obsessed with him! I am such a fool at times.
We had some nice chats yesterday. We got interrupted on one talking about my journaling. He still hasn't written in the journal I got him. He says it's in his car. Some day I'll have the guts to ask him to coffee meetups when I go to the local office full time but again I realize that's highly inappropriate so I'll probably never mention it. But when I went to leave I poked my head into his office and he was talking to someone and I figured he'd at least wave but nothing. Didn't even acknowledge I walked into the room. And that grounded me quite a bit lol Stupid cloud 9 of some dumb crush... shit.... Obsession is the best way to explain it.
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