So... After some time I have decided that avoidance is necessary. There is a level of intimacy (for lack of a better word) to our friendship that is dangerous and I need keep my distance. No more emails. No more stopping by the main office to chat... Ugh it's going to be hard. But I need the distance. I need the separation. The realization of what I did. The lies that built upon lies, kept digging me into a deeper hole. I love Husband Creature. What am I doing with Obsession?
I shared with my best friend what happened. I needed it not to be a secret anymore, not hidden. And I didn't think I could tell my Husband Creature without making it worse. So she gave me a perspective that was necessary. Thankfully I feel it really clicked. It was a wake-up call.
I found out my start date for my promotion. I was given two options and I picked the sooner option only to get me started sooner but also to get me away from Obsession faster. Today has been easy. He doesn't work Tuesdays. But tomorrow will be the first day with this new focus.
My best friend asked if Obsession approached me and planted a kiss on me would I kiss back. And everything in me said there is no way! As much as I obsess, my fantasies aren't sexual in nature. My obsession is intense, intimate, but not sexual. So then it leans towards emotional... And that's the realization... Danger!
