Things just feel awkward lately. I go through cycles... Like I'm over-reacting and everything is fine, then I get pissy that Obsession doesn't seem to give a crap about me. That if I dropped off the face of the earth he might notice the lack of cookies... eventually. Fucker... The last few times I've seen him he's been "meh"... I can't decide if that's because he's miserable at this assignment or if he's just meh about seeing me. The last time I actually talked to him he said it was nice to see me. Which felt good. But then no birthday message. Even when I emailed him about seeing him Wednesday but never getting to talk to him. He responded but didn't even say anything or ask me anything. Then, he did tell me happy early birthday. So maybe I'm just annoyed.
Husband Creature asked me today a question that made me wonder if he still wonders about my relationship with Obsession. A guy from my new unit suggested I watch Rebels because he says I won't understand references in Ahsoka. I finally agreed to try and my Husband Creature has tried to get me to watch it and I haven't. Now I felt it necessary because I'm a little lost on some of the stuff talked about on Ahsoka. Well today Husband Creature asked me who was the person who suggested I watch it. I told him the guys' name and he asked if he worked up in the local office or down where I work now. I told him down where I work now. He knows Obsession works at the local office. So I wondered if he was trying to find out if Obsession is the reason I decided to give it a try. That makes me sad. But I was glad that it wasn't him who suggested it.
Anyways, I'm not feeling so hot. I feel like something stuck in my right ear. And now my right side of my face feels hot. Blah...
The above was written 9/8/23 before 4:00pm.
And of course things changed since the above was written... I didn't realize Obsession was working the overnight shift so he got there late Friday. I needed his signature on something so when I got it, he shared about his fishing trip and showed me pictures without me even asking him. Apparently as he's gotten older he gets seasick, so he was telling me about his experience with that and how miserable he was but that he got the most amazing sleep on the boat. But that was all we had time for. I had to rush off. So we'll see how it goes tomorrow if I see him again.
