That's Hot

At some point our conversation went to Wonder Woman and I mentioned that Gal Gadot is hot! He agreed and leaned forward and said "it's hot that you say she's hot". lol

We had an interesting chat about his interview for upper management. Though he brought up the fact that he could be my boss some day if he got it. And how awesome it would be to work together every day and how he'd ask for cookies every day, warm cookies and cold milk! lol The thought was a new concept for me. I had never thought about the fact that if he promotes he's in a position to be my direct boss and what that would mean. If he ever did become my direct supervisor I'm not sure how my Husband Creature would feel about that. I don't know how *I* would feel about that! Sigh

It was also brought up that I was taking photos for a lot of our coworker's kids. He mentioned his daughter is graduating this year and he should probably consider getting her photos done. He asked how much I charge and asked to see my recent shoot of our coworkers sons' senior portraits. I showed him. He didn't seem to respond like he thought they were all that good. But he said he would talk to his wife and let me know. My first thought is, if she's not even ok with us texting there is no way she'd hire me to do their daughter's senior photos. But I have to say if it ever came about I'd have to check with Husband Creature and see if he'd be ok with it. Every time I think about it though, I'm convinced Obsession's wife wouldn't even allow it. So I shouldn't have to worry about it. He asked when people usually get them done. I said it's typically the summer before the Senior year but I suggest the latest would be Spring before graduation so they can get their announcements printed up in time. He seemed surprised and happy to get the info. So we'll see.

Another friend from his unit and I were talking about trying to grow our hair out and how cutting it makes it stronger and helps it grow. She started to complain her husband doesn't like it when she cuts her hair. I told her my husband said it's a divorceable offense if I cut my hair. We started to wonder why guys like long hair on women. So we went to Obsession to ask him. I happened in passing to ask if it's about the concept of pulling hair and he said he wasn't much of a hair puller himself. I was surprised because a well placed hair tug could totally get me going, but I didn't go into detail. It was the other girl who brought up that my reaction sounded like I like my hair pulled. I laughed and casually said yes I did. Obsession said he prefers long hair but couldn't tell me why. He just did. But said it wasn't a divorceable offense for him. Then he asked what happens if I get cancer and lose all my hair, would my Husband Creature divorce me? I laughed and realized I need to clarify that with my Husband Creature. lol I'm sure there's a clause that will maintain my marriage if cancer were to cause me to lose my hair.

Feeling stupid for no reason?

So yesterday I had one of those moments... Feeling stupid for no apparent reason...

I saw Obsession. The conversation went fine. He was super sweet as usual. We kept getting interrupted but nothing awkward or horrible happened and yet I left feeling stupid and foolish. Was it because of my obsessive thoughts since his email sharing that he thought I was fun to talk to? Probably. It probably struck me that it was stupid to get all infatuated by that statement. Stupid to think I'm the only person he enjoys talking to. Stupid to think I matter.

So really I think it's just me feeling stupid about how much his email had an impact on me.

He did give me a protein bar for me to try which I thought was sweet of him. It was his favorite kind. Chocolate Brownie Kirkland brand. He asked me about my coloring and where I go. I've often wondered if he'd ever show up there one of these days. He shared that he knows how to play the ukulele and that his one full song is Jason Mraz I'm Yours. I shared that he needed to get comfortable playing it over the next couple of months and perform for me. He said he would if I danced to him playing on Tik Tok. I still don't get Tik Tok. We talked about social media. He got turned off by Facebook because of all the food pics. I shared I'm more of an Instagram user, that I take pics of my art not so much food. Somewhere in there a girl from another unit came through. She talked about Tik Tok and dancing in a tube top. Obsession seemed intrigued. She said her husband wasn't ok if she posted it and Obsession piped up that he agreed, he wouldn't want his wife showing off on Tik Tok. This particular girl is in my opinion really pretty. Maybe there is a part of me that wonders if Obsession thinks she's as fun to talk to?

We talked about him having asthma. How he thinks I have asthma even though I told him the doctor said it was bronchitis. I guess there were a couple of moments where I felt like he wasn't really listening. Normally I feel his full undivided attention and yesterday he seemed distracted. Maybe that's all it was.

Ultimately it was a good day and a good chat. Yet I kept telling myself "Fuck it" yesterday after I left. And I can't quite figure out why? Why am I suddenly so ashamed? Maybe it's the Holy Spirit? Maybe it's my foolishness in my own heart. Danger is prevalent but maybe this is the danger my counselor was talking about.