I don't know what it is but Colorado has been on my mind a lot lately. I miss our conversations. I miss the challenges he'd make me face. He'd challenge my thinking. And honestly he'd make me feel good about myself. He'd also piss me off beyond belief. lol But I want to know how he's doing. It's hard not to reach out. And it's hard to believe it's been so long since we've talked. In fact today is the anniversary of his email to me acknowledging that I told him for my marriage's sake I needed to stop communication with him. 3 years. Crazy. A lot can change in that timeframe. I wonder if he thinks about me this same way, wondering how I'm doing.
When I start to reach out to my Ex, or seek attention from Obsession, or struggle not contacting Colorado... I wonder what part of my insecurity is needing to be fed by the attention.
