More Confident w/ Obsession

Work has kept me busy so I haven't had as much time to chitchat with Obsession and he noticed. Which is nice.

I was looking at the photos that I have of him and realized he's not as attractive as I keep thinking. There is something about him when I see him in person that sets me a flutter. Not sure why. Maybe he's just not as photogenic. Not sure.

But speaking of those photos, I finally asked him to show what issues he was having about downloading those photos and he showed me. As an example he took the one selfie I took out of the bunch and said "Let's say I want to download this photo, how do I go about downloading it?" and I showed him. Sure enough he saved it in a personal folder. And then went through the other photos and selected one of me with the girl that works in his area. I tried not to look over his shoulder at what photos he was saving so I walked away, heart pounding.

I'm leaving in about 10 minutes. I haven't seen him since Friday of last week. But for some reason I felt the need to send him an email. We've talked about my marriage some. My husband and I are having slight issues. And before you get the wrong impression, I was very vague and mostly putting my own responses on blast. Joking that I put things neatly in a box and pack them away and apparently my husband hadn't had a chance to process the contents so it caused an issue. So now it's kind of a joke, he told me to have fun camping and to be sure to get things boxed up properly. So I sent him an email this morning saying everything was nicely boxed up indicating my husband and I are doing well. :) And the email thread kept growing to my surprise. I kept expecting the short non-interested responses I'm used to. But he kept it going. Telling me to have a Happy Birthday, remembering the day. I told him if I throw something together I'd let him know.

In my mind I no longer worry so much. Probably because as much as I enjoy his personality I don't want anything more than friendship. Sure in the beginning I was fantasizing about inappropriate things, ;) but now... I'm more relaxed and just enjoy his friendship. Still obsessive... but nothin like I was.

Like I'm hoping they invite me to the lunch they plan for their units September birthdays... Since some days and a few times he's brought up, I feel more part of their unit than my own. Or if I do plan a birthday event, I want to invite him and his family. But then I freak out thinking he would come. He lives in a big house and I live in a small apartment. So yeah, still obsessive about him in weird ways. But for now... I'm off...