Man I'm struggling with wanting to contact Colorado again. I've been really drawn to reaching out to him. It's getting annoying. I open a chat window, then close it. I see his profile is active on FB again. He deactivated it for a while. I want to send him a message. Or add him as a friend. Then I found out initial reconnection messages on FB back in 2016. Read through them and as I did I almost reacted to a message accidentally and that would have notified him on FB. *face palm* Ugh... Why am I struggling so bad? Am I missing out on attention somewhere? I always feel the need to seek attention when I'm feeling low. But I'm not feeling low atm... Am I? Well... there is the lack with Obsession last week. The week before it was great. Last week... sucked. And left me feeling foolish and like I waste my time with people that don't value me.
Someone posted this on FB and it seems fitting...
A Pepsi costs $1.50 in a vending machine, $3.00 in a grocery store & $5.00 at a theme park. The only thing that changed is its location. The next time you feel like you don't have any worth, consider that maybe it's not you. Maybe it's your location. Finding the place that God intends for you to be, will change Everything!
I needed that.
