Of course I've daydreamed of the time I'd run into my Obsession around town since we live in the same area. My daydreams have always been pleasant, talking for a while, etc. And what would happen the one time I actually run into him? I look like shit, I had just got done walking, in unflattering clothing, hair pulled up and bam! I literally almost run into him. No hiding, no running, blah! He was sweet about it at least. He seemed uncomfortable with how he looked too. Like he could look bad? But he felt the need to explain his clothing, he had just taken off his work shirt and was just in a t-shirt. I at least got to explain that I looked the way I did because I had just got done walking. He gave me kudos, saying "good for you" and asked where I walked. I literally dropped the conversation awkwardly. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Then I regretted that, because then I walked right in front of him, he got to see all of me without hiding behind a grocery cart. *sigh*
So last night I tell my Husband Creature I feel bad. That I haven't done my part in our marriage and lost weight. That I knew my weight was an issue for him. That my potentially moving back down to the office I just came from made me depressed. That I needed to do something about my weight but I wasn't sure what. That I needed to get more sleep and try not to have too much on my plate. He was gentle about it, kind. He said he doesn't have an issue with the way I look but wants me to be healthy. I told him that's why I forced myself to walk last night. That I just needed to get out there and do something.
Then this morning I went to my doctors appointment. She told me what I already knew. I have high cholesterol and I'm pre-diabetic. She also told me we needed to work on my weight. I told her of my efforts. She said I need to avoid red meats, cheese and eggs... As I thought about it, that *IS* my diet. I live on eggs, cheese and meats, maybe not all red but still. So I've been toying around the idea of cutting those out of my diet for 3 months to see if it really works. As I was thinking that through, I realized I don't know what I'd eat for breakfast, so now I'm looking into a Premier Protein shake as a meal replacement. If I add an avocado to my shake, it will add the healthy fats and veggies to make it a well rounded meal. So... I was talking to my coworker about the shakes, she's been drinking them for a while now, and she got on me for my coffee intake. I immediately got defensive but in the end decided it couldn't hurt to cut back to grande for these three months and see where I end up. lol
This does mean extra cost to our food budget but if I stick with a protein shake for two meals it might end up helping. Not quite sure. Or maybe I could have egg whites with the little add on fillers to mix it up a bit so I can avoid cheese. lol I have a gift card to Target, maybe I'll pick up a mini bullet and blend the avocado into the shake for breakfast at work. Or maybe I'll use my little egg cooker and use egg whites and the mix-ins. I haven't talked to my Husband Creature about this but I feel like he'll be on board.
Is it sad that I am looking forward to not seeing Obsession for a month or so and see if I lose any weight? And if for some reason I end up going back down to the other office, it'll be a bit of time before that happens. I need a jump start. I think this is the motivation I needed. I've been miserable for a while now. I want to see if this will work for me.
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
Friday, May 10, 2019
Fairwell Lunch
5/7/19
So I came in to work and Obsession had baked me cookies. I had asked him to before I left but really didn't expect him to. He loves my chocolate chip cookies and had promised to make me some of his recipe for me to try. It was really sweet. He made me 2 dozen. Put a note saying "Guess Who?". To which my friend said it was inappropriate that I took a photo of the cookies with the note on it. She told me to delete the photo. That it showed we had some inside joke. In my head, I kept thinking dang, she will never know about me laminating his one note telling me I'm the best.
He was dressed up for a meeting but jokingly said he had dressed up for me. I almost told him I liked him better without facial hair but realized that was inappropriate. At one point, one of the girls from his unit mentioned that he had on cute pants. He said he would have preferred she tell him he had a cute butt. To which I asked, wouldn't that be more inappropriate? I don't think he was thinking of it that way. He was only thinking he'd rather be told he had a cute butt then pants. lol
The unit bought me flowers. He stared at me while I read the card. I felt his stare. And I wanted to look up but couldn't make eye contact. "You will truly be missed. The early morning conversations and afternoon laughs helped pass the time. Be sure to keep in touch. -Obsession" Nothing inappropriate. Nothing intimate. The more I think about it, the most intimate thing he did that day was bake me cookies.
We joked that his cookies were pretty good, maybe even better then mine. So we tested it. He wanted me to tell people I tried a new recipe and see what they thought. He wasn't back once I got the verdict so I wrote him a quick note on his desk stating "Verdict is in :-P". I happened to be at the copy machine when I saw him come around the corner with my note in hand with an excited look on his face. The interesting thing is, I went into his office and looked in his trash expecting to see my note in there, and it wasn't. Started to make me wonder if he's saved my messages as well.
5/9/19
I had texted him asking if he wanted Happy Hour Starbucks and his coworker found out (the one that figured out he was the one I was attracted to) and asked where her invite was then jokingly said that people were going to start thinking we were boyfriend/girlfriend if we kept it up. Baking cookies for each other etc. Without hesitation Obsession said "too late!" I'm guessing he's been given some crap.
5/10/19
I keep thinking it's a good thing we're not going to be seeing each other very often. I need the distance. I do well with Obsession but right now it's just too much. I need a break. I need the distance. I know that's something my Husband Creature would hate to hear and in all honesty I STILL don't understand this whole Obsession thing. My relationship with my Husband Creature is pretty amazing right now.
I am so foolish.
So I came in to work and Obsession had baked me cookies. I had asked him to before I left but really didn't expect him to. He loves my chocolate chip cookies and had promised to make me some of his recipe for me to try. It was really sweet. He made me 2 dozen. Put a note saying "Guess Who?". To which my friend said it was inappropriate that I took a photo of the cookies with the note on it. She told me to delete the photo. That it showed we had some inside joke. In my head, I kept thinking dang, she will never know about me laminating his one note telling me I'm the best.
He was dressed up for a meeting but jokingly said he had dressed up for me. I almost told him I liked him better without facial hair but realized that was inappropriate. At one point, one of the girls from his unit mentioned that he had on cute pants. He said he would have preferred she tell him he had a cute butt. To which I asked, wouldn't that be more inappropriate? I don't think he was thinking of it that way. He was only thinking he'd rather be told he had a cute butt then pants. lol
The unit bought me flowers. He stared at me while I read the card. I felt his stare. And I wanted to look up but couldn't make eye contact. "
We joked that his cookies were pretty good, maybe even better then mine. So we tested it. He wanted me to tell people I tried a new recipe and see what they thought. He wasn't back once I got the verdict so I wrote him a quick note on his desk stating "Verdict is in :-P". I happened to be at the copy machine when I saw him come around the corner with my note in hand with an excited look on his face. The interesting thing is, I went into his office and looked in his trash expecting to see my note in there, and it wasn't. Started to make me wonder if he's saved my messages as well.
5/9/19
I had texted him asking if he wanted Happy Hour Starbucks and his coworker found out (the one that figured out he was the one I was attracted to) and asked where her invite was then jokingly said that people were going to start thinking we were boyfriend/girlfriend if we kept it up. Baking cookies for each other etc. Without hesitation Obsession said "too late!" I'm guessing he's been given some crap.
5/10/19
I keep thinking it's a good thing we're not going to be seeing each other very often. I need the distance. I do well with Obsession but right now it's just too much. I need a break. I need the distance. I know that's something my Husband Creature would hate to hear and in all honesty I STILL don't understand this whole Obsession thing. My relationship with my Husband Creature is pretty amazing right now.
I am so foolish.
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