So I struggled with whether or not to tell my Husband Creature that I was taking an hour + drive each way with Obsession. Of course, Husband Creature wouldn't know who Obsession is but honestly I didn't want him to tell me that he'd prefer me not driving down with another guy. That's horrible I know. I feel guilty. And my actions gave him pause because he mentioned it later in the day that I was quieter than usual. At one point we were driving and my Husband Creature called and I didn't know how to answer so... I didn't. Goodness... Typing that out makes me feel so much worse. One of my coworkers said to just be careful. I had shared that I didn't tell Husband Creature about the drive and I regretted it and now it'll look bad. She said if the opportunity should arise again I should just... be careful. I told her there really wouldn't be another opportunity so I think I was safe.
During the drive I kept my verbal filter in place, which is good. I needed to. I wanted to share some things... things that were inappropriate but I held my tongue. I'm honestly impressed with myself. There were two moments I literally had to bite my lips together. I sometimes wonder if Obsession told his wife that we were riding down together. People at work seemed surprised. So it's not the typical situation. Is that weird to ask?
The ride itself was pleasant. Conversation always flows easily between us. I took a few moments to just enjoy being able to look at him while he drove. I looked at my hands when I was tempted to say something I probably shouldn't. There was one point the conversation took a negative turn towards Husband Creature and I made sure to express the benefits even amidst the struggles. Obsession was stating he was surprised we didn't get into more fights because my Husband Creature doesn't like helping out more. Obsession said if he was able to be home as much as him he'd have the house spotless and the yard gorgeous. But instead of agreeing and holding onto that resentment of my Husband Creature I shared the benefits of having someone home to help out with our Stinker Creature. I never have to worry about Stinker Creature being looked after or picked up from school, etc.
Obsession has been very social with me since. Inviting me to come into his office and shut the door to share something at work I was struggling with. Teasing me. Coming to me and asking for my help. The part that surprised me is he actually texted me and asked if I had any videos or photos of the event. I sent him what I had, I honestly didn't think to video him the whole time. I did at the very end because I really like his voice and wanted something with that. I wish I had thought to video him throughout the presentation. (If he asked for photos and videos then his wife had to know I was there with him.) I didn't expect to see him today but he ended up being asked to come in. He came to me quite a bit for things being playful in the process.
