So last week was my first week down at my new office. It was slightly awkward and I felt sad that I wasn't with people I was comfortable with. I had sent an email to Obsession the Friday before I left that was responded to in a weird way. But we've had a number of genuine interactions prior to me leaving that make me realize it's not intentional. He was probably just busy and wanted to at least respond. He didn't acknowledge anything in the email which I was hoping for a reaction but all he said is
We will miss you Clandestine!
:(
Obsession
He found out the June 2nd was my last day there and he surprised me with a $25 gift card for Starbucks! He asked for my personal email address and when I asked him what he was sending me he said it was none of my business and I'd find out soon enough. And I got it a moment later...
You'll be missed my friend.
He missed the surprise farewell party at work a few weeks back because work got in the way. And I happened to mention the party and he apologized for missing it, and said he was still mad he didn't get to go.
I had to call my old location a couple of times and ended up talking to Obsession. It was sweet to hear his excitement to hear my voice. He thought I was at the building and he seemed super excited. I had to tell him I wasn't but knew there was someone there that needed an escort through the building. I got to see him Friday which didn't go as great as I thought. But someone saw me talking to him in the main office along with another coworker and she's like "It's the Dynamic Duo!" And I didn't catch it quite at first till I the other coworker sitting with us looked at me with his eyebrows raised and said "oh duo huh?" shouldn't that be "trio"? And it didn't hit me till we had moved on how interesting he picked up on that. I don't think people realize Obsession and I are actually friends.
Obsession made a comment I thought was interesting... About me calling. I told him and that same coworker I got to talk to both of them yesterday on the phone. The one coworker said well you got to talk to me twice, puffing up his chest. And I said well I talked to Obsession twice too. And Obsession said, you did? Oh well you called me just to catch up and not just work. That wasn't the case but he was saying it for my coworkers benefit because he was looking for his reaction. I already know that coworker gets pissy in a teasing way that Obsession gets his own stash of cookies and he doesn't get his own. I had asked Obsession if my actions are making it hard for him, he said well don't stop! And that it's because the coworker was just jealous and giving Obsession a hard time. And he asked if I could handle it. I told him of course.
And sometimes I even get surprised by how much we're actually friends. Though I thoroughly embarrassed myself when I asked if he was coming to my promotional dinner some girls were doing for me at Red Robin. He said it would take some convincing for his wife. He said it would just be easier to bring his girlfriend and without thinking I said "Wouldn't that be me?" I turned 10 shades redder and my friends from work both looked at me and I was completely embarrassed and apologized and said that I didn't mean it. He said that things like that would be why he could never go. lol
Blah... He helped me load up the last of my stuff in my car and as he handed me my desk calendar he was like, let me check if you have my birthday on here. And I said, I don't know about that, but I do have other things on there that have to do with you. lol He never asked for clarification so I never told him what that meant. Last month we ended up having a 45 min conversation on a Friday after I got off work with him venting. And I find myself wishing for more time like that but work hasn't allowed that on either side.
Man... I need to be careful. What happened to avoidance? Ugh...
