Interesting... He was going to text me last night and decided against it. I've wondered why he hasn't. Now it's interesting to realize he has thought about it but has stopped himself. lol Wonder if he ever will? Either way it was about having a temporary roommate and he didn't see his car out front when he drove by to pick up his son from soccer practice. He says he feels like a creeper always looking when he drives by. He was out at about 6:45 pm and 7:10 pm. Guess it's good to know when he's driving by. hehe I'm more convinced that day when I felt like I sensed him and saw a black truck it must have been him. Lovely, I was in my pajamas.
*Update 10/19/18*
So, it's been an interesting week. We have such random, interesting conversations.
*Update 10/22/18*
Well, it's the oddest feeling. Some days I feel like we're genuine friends, I treat him like one and get reminded that we are just acquaintances/coworkers. I text him Friday because I saw him on the work social media page again. Crickets... Nothing... I feel stupid.
Last week we had a drill at the office. He was part of it. So was I. Just different areas. But in the end we were at the review meeting to go over how everything went. I was in perfect eye line but behind someone so I could easily hide behind and stare all I wanted. hehe They ordered us pizza. I was talking to my boss and Obsession came behind me, held me by the shoulders as he passed. He didn't need to but he did. My body reacted to his touch. ... Just now my mind wandered into a fantasy. Dang... Still obsessing. It had to do with the work stairwell and him running into me there. Not good.
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Monday, October 01, 2018
Silly
When I skim through my older posts I think how silly I sound. I mean it seems so childish. Yet there's a real feeling. A genuine connection. It's hard to explain. Out of everyone in his department, he seems to seek more from me. The others just sort of go along.
We talked about Christian music. I shared how this song by Lauren Daigle, "You Say" really touched me one morning when I was struggling. The morning in question he said he was surprised because I came in my normal confident bubbly self. And he shared the song he added to his YouTube video in memory of his brother. He said he couldn't listen to it or he'd get teary eyed.
It was funny, this last week I noticed a few times he's been talking about stuff we talk about to his kids, bringing up conversations we've had. He officially knows where I live. He said he couldn't remember which apartment was mine but he saw this one with blue lights and asked where I was in reference to that one. I laughed and said that was mine. And in one conversation I was sharing something random about my family (about how we sort of "adopted" my dad's interpreter) and he said "wow, it just keeps getting more and more interesting."
He is attempting to watch "The Greatest Showman" for two reasons. One his daughter loves the music, and me and another coworker said it was a great movie. So he said he'd surprise his daughter and buy her the dvd and suffer through watching it with her and let us know how he liked it. lol Hey, if we could convince him to watch something he didn't want to, that's pretty impressive.
I overheard him talking to my boss about how talented I am with my painting. And he came into my new office to see the latest work one. He found out I used a stencil and teased me that I was better then that. I did a paint and plant yesterday and painted a terracotta pot and almost used the stencil (but thought about what Obsession said) and did it freehand and loved how it turned out. I was walking back to my desk afterwards and he saw me in the hallway and was super impressed with it. Wanting to take a closer look at the details. I shared that because of what he said I did it freehand. And he was happy I did.
It's his birthday next week. He's taking some time off. So I stopped over yesterday and told him to have a Happy Birthday. And he seemed surprised he wasn't going to see me today. I reminded him that I work at the local office Mondays and Fridays. And seemed kinda bummed he would see me in a week and only for a day.
We had some great chats this week. Lots of laughter. Lots of involvement and interest.
*Updated 10/9/18*
So strange how time flows through changes. One moment I'm obsessing, the next I'm avoiding it at all costs. Though Saturday night I felt the need to keep my distance. It's almost like as soon as I decided to avoid Obsession he literally is shoved in my face from every direction. First it was the departments Instagram account, first thing that pulled up was a photo of him in his Breast Cancer uniform. Next was a friend who likes his football team telling me they won 5 in a row and of course made me think of how Obsession is going to try to recruit me to be a fan. I keep wondering if he had a chance to watch The Greatest Showman yet, or if he's driven by my house since. I obsessed over the text I'd send to wish him a Happy Birthday but ended up keeping it short and simple.
We talked about Christian music. I shared how this song by Lauren Daigle, "You Say" really touched me one morning when I was struggling. The morning in question he said he was surprised because I came in my normal confident bubbly self. And he shared the song he added to his YouTube video in memory of his brother. He said he couldn't listen to it or he'd get teary eyed.
It was funny, this last week I noticed a few times he's been talking about stuff we talk about to his kids, bringing up conversations we've had. He officially knows where I live. He said he couldn't remember which apartment was mine but he saw this one with blue lights and asked where I was in reference to that one. I laughed and said that was mine. And in one conversation I was sharing something random about my family (about how we sort of "adopted" my dad's interpreter) and he said "wow, it just keeps getting more and more interesting."
He is attempting to watch "The Greatest Showman" for two reasons. One his daughter loves the music, and me and another coworker said it was a great movie. So he said he'd surprise his daughter and buy her the dvd and suffer through watching it with her and let us know how he liked it. lol Hey, if we could convince him to watch something he didn't want to, that's pretty impressive.
I overheard him talking to my boss about how talented I am with my painting. And he came into my new office to see the latest work one. He found out I used a stencil and teased me that I was better then that. I did a paint and plant yesterday and painted a terracotta pot and almost used the stencil (but thought about what Obsession said) and did it freehand and loved how it turned out. I was walking back to my desk afterwards and he saw me in the hallway and was super impressed with it. Wanting to take a closer look at the details. I shared that because of what he said I did it freehand. And he was happy I did.
It's his birthday next week. He's taking some time off. So I stopped over yesterday and told him to have a Happy Birthday. And he seemed surprised he wasn't going to see me today. I reminded him that I work at the local office Mondays and Fridays. And seemed kinda bummed he would see me in a week and only for a day.
We had some great chats this week. Lots of laughter. Lots of involvement and interest.
*Updated 10/9/18*
So strange how time flows through changes. One moment I'm obsessing, the next I'm avoiding it at all costs. Though Saturday night I felt the need to keep my distance. It's almost like as soon as I decided to avoid Obsession he literally is shoved in my face from every direction. First it was the departments Instagram account, first thing that pulled up was a photo of him in his Breast Cancer uniform. Next was a friend who likes his football team telling me they won 5 in a row and of course made me think of how Obsession is going to try to recruit me to be a fan. I keep wondering if he had a chance to watch The Greatest Showman yet, or if he's driven by my house since. I obsessed over the text I'd send to wish him a Happy Birthday but ended up keeping it short and simple.
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