I just got off the phone with my cousin who told me something almost unbelievable. If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes I would still not know what to think about it all! Nevermind, I have seen the information with my own eyes and STILL don't know what to think of it all! Turns out I have another cousin! My aunt had a baby before she got married, went to stay with my mom of all people and gave the baby up for adoption!!!! There is a website that says my cousins names! All of them! This girl is looking for them. I'm kind of in shock! What do you do? My cousin is in shock. She just found out about it about an hour before she called me!
My aunt is beside herself. Apparently this was a secret she planned on keeping to the grave. And I'm in shock my mom kept this secret as well! I'm surprised my aunt wouldn't tell her own kids now that they are older. But she was miserable and even so devastated that they knew she threatened to do herself harm! She feels she's a horrible mother and just kept saying she really had no intention of them ever finding out.
My other cousin found it when he googled his own name! Right there for the world to see! His name and the name of his two sisters... The girl telling them not to be afraid to contact her because they have another sister! This type of stuff happens on Lifetime, not in real life!
Anyways, I'm sworn to secrecy, even from my immediate family! I can understand why. I mean let them take care of it and get used to the idea before it becomes public knowledge for the whole family. But obviously my mom knows about it. I guess they haven't told my other cousin. The brother and sister three-way called their mom (my aunt) and confronted her with it. The other sister may not take it so well. So the cousin that called me isn't sure how to address that whole situation of telling her. Though she knows she needs to.
This is just odd. This type of stuff doesn't happen in our family. Well we didn't think it did anyways! Why is it that back in the day they were so good at keeping secrets and nowadays everyone knows everything. I guess it was more taboo? Honestly if I were to get pregnant before marriage it would be just as devastating! Small towns and such, somehow kept good secrets! haha
I laugh but with my mouth fully dropped open. I'm still in shock! I have another cousin out there! What a trip! I wonder how this will all come out. I'm dying to talk to people about it. But for now I'm going to respect my cousins wishes and just share it on my anonymous blog... Cause I gotta put it out somewhere!
