Continued Obsession

Welp... The Obsession continues... 

Yesterday we had a conversation about Our Purpose. That's one thing I'll say about him. He does continue to draw me in. I want to chat but I never force conversations. Yesterday, I went over to ask a quick question and he was like "come join us, we're talking about deep stuff. What's your purpose in life?" We ended up talking for like an hour about our God given purposes. I found out a lot about his beliefs. And I think for the first time I saw a side of him I wasn't drawn to. The *first* time! He does have some faith. He was raised Jehovah Witness but converted to Christianity. But he still holds to some of the Jehovah Witness beliefs. Yet it seems he doesn't take faith very seriously. He believes being a good person is your role in life. Clearly with this conversation we talked about my faith, my history in a Christian home. His partner and I have very similar beliefs, so he was happy that I came in at that moment to share my purpose because it was in line with what he was trying to share with him. My Obsession believes we don't have a purpose, that we are just here to live the best life we can live, that nothing is orchestrated. In some respects I agree, but in others I strongly disagreed with him. Either way it was a rather interesting conversation. 

So a couple items of note. I sent out an email to all the local people who commute to work and let them have my number in case they needed a ride or anything. He was the only one to reply and gave me his personal cell number. Not even his work one. 

One of our conversations I mentioned that I had a hard time saying "no" and he teased me by asking for cookies but said he wouldn't be back in the office until a week later. I told him "no" and we laughed. But I actually did make him cookies, but I was also asked by someone else so I felt it could work without looking like I did it *just* for him. When I gave them to him, he didn't fully recall our conversation. Once I reminded him he remembered and laughed and I made sure to indicate he wasn't the only person that asked for them. 

We talked about him journalling once, I bought him a journal and I can't seem to get myself to give it to him. It seems like an inappropriate gift for a married woman to give a married man. So I have it hidden away in my desk. I don't know that I'll ever give it to him. 

He hates spiders but is ok with snakes. His 13 year old is afraid of his lizard. His kids are his everything. Jehovah Witnesses don't believe in blood transfusions or giving birthday gifts, when it comes to his kids, he doesn't care, he will do either. He's lived in my area since the late 90's. He rode dirt bikes. He has 3 brothers, one passed away last year. His older brother is the problem child. We mentioned something about our marriages being different then when we first got married, and he said under his breath that his wife is bugging him, and him and his partner started laughing so I think there was some kind of inside joke they had discussed previously. 

I do find that he doesn't recall most of our conversations, which leads me to believe he's just not that interested in what I'm saying. I cling to every word he says, which makes me feel foolish. And I noticed his wall calendar shows his projects/schedule. He will be at an off site location next week when I will be. Kind of excited about that for some reason. What will make me laugh is I never see him, would serve me right.