Changing Obsession

It's crazy to me the Obsession still continues. Not as insane as it once was thankfully. But he still pops into my head at the most random moments. Apparently he has driven by my apartment every time he takes his daughter to soccer practice. Though we just realized this last week and I think the soccer season seems to be over.

He asked what I was doing for the 4th of July. Which is part of how he learned where I live. Looks like he'll be going to the event by my place next year after what I had to say about it and what his brother had to say. Apparently, his brother has gone 3 years in a row and really enjoys it.

I ended up giving Obsession the journal I had bought for him a while back. I had to make sure Husband Creature was ok with me giving another guy a gift. He thought it was strange but said he didn't have a problem with it. My Obsession really appreciated it. Thought it was super sweet. He even gave me a hug. I told him how I had it for a while and wasn't sure about giving it to him, that I felt silly. He said he was sad I felt odd about it. And aside from my cookies, this is the favorite thing he's gotten from me. (hehe The only two things he's gotten from me.)

We had a going away party for another upper management person. He asked if I was going to walk down with his group. I did but he was so far up front I went with another person. While in the room, again I'm always so aware of his presence, he didn't even seem to see me. I said my goodbyes to the person and grabbed a cupcake and walked back down to my office. I was scanning some documents and saw him walking down towards his office. I smiled and kept doing what I was doing. He came to my area, a rarity, and said he thought I was going down with them and asked why I wasn't there. I told him I had gone down but only stayed to say good luck and good bye and had to get back to work. The fact that he didn't see me when I was there was a tad disappointing but I was happy he noticed my absence enough to come ask for me. Yep. Pathetic.

We had a fire in the path of our drive home last Friday and I was working in the local office and couldn't help but hope he would show up there. But no such luck.

I kind of wish there was someone else to obsess over. Colorado and I have been continually chatting. He has his moments of pushing for more sexual focus of conversation but I tend to avoid that direction with him. And there are a few coworkers I find myself toying with flirtation but nothing any where near as obsessive as Obsession.

I will say the more we have talked the more I hear Obsession referencing things we've talked about. So at least I know he now listens to what I have to say and remembers it. Though I still think about him WAY more than I should and get the feeling he doesn't even notice when I'm not around. He still seems to share more about his schedule than seems normal. He's very specific which days he'll be off, I tend to stare at his wall calendar when I'm in his office to get a peak of what his schedule is like. I see his car almost every day. It sucks that it's such a common make and color because goodness every single time my heart beats a bit faster until I realize a feature that is off somehow and realize it's not his. Yep, obsession. Yep. Pathetic. But... completely and utterly real.