So... It was my birthday Thursday...

Happy Birthday to me! So my birthday was Thursday. I didn't do too much. I felt special all day though. I was surprised I got so many calls, emails, texts, comments on myspace and facebook, etc. At work Computer Geek applauded me. There is another guy... not sure I ever gave him a nickname but I know I've mentioned him. I was accused of having an affair with him! Either way he gave me a hug and wished me a happy birthday. Another girl sang me happy birthday. I think the biggest surprise was someone I've known on a superficial level for years made a point to go out of his way to call and wish me a happy birthday. All-in-all it was a great day! And tonight I'm going out with some friends.

Geek Photographer - Where to start? There have been so many blogs I've started but never posted about him. Mostly because I get so furious with him, I vent, and suddenly he's as sweet as can be again. I guess it's safe to say he brings out the worst in me. Horrible to say I know. But it's the only explanation I can give for how I react to him. Turns out I do the same to him, though he hides it better then me. I'm drawn to him in an unnatural way. I think he knows this and exploits it. He enjoys the power and abuses it until he realizes that he's pushed me too far and then he makes up for it.

Though in all the frustration I think we've come to a mutual understanding and respect for where to draw the lines. I sometimes wonder what makes the friendship worth this much effort!?

So we got together a week and a half ago to test out his new concept for a photoshoot. We had a good time. I think that was the first time I realized how much it bothers him that I pry into his life. Not by what he said, but just how he said it. It made sense. I'm an open person so it's harder for me to understand. But something clicked and I decided to back off on asking him and sure enough in the last week and a half he's opened up more then ever. Maybe not about things I have been curious about but some things I was pleasantly surprised he was willing to share.

I lost it with him a week ago Friday but within moments I realized what the issue was. And there hasn't been any issues ever since. I shared with him my concerns. I've been very honest that I believe my feelings for him affect my ability to brush off the things he says. I don't regret telling him this, though I'm sure some people would say that wasn't wise. I have no clue where this friendship is going. And really, it doesn't matter.