Obsession - So I haven't seen my Obsession for over a week since he went on vacation. We had a great week prior to his vacation though. We had a work function and we spent some time hanging out. He came up and hugged me when he first saw me. We got our photo taken together. It was odd, I asked him and the way it came out was I wanted him, I noticed the awkwardness but I didn't correct it. :-/ But I now have a photo with him. (Though side note: I was glad to show him all the photos so he could see he wasn't the only person I asked to take a photo with me. He commented on how I have a big smile in all the photos with everyone.) After the photo I asked where his people were, he said he wasn't sure but then asked me *who* my people were. I told him honestly I wasn't sure, that I felt like I belonged to his group as well as others. He agreed he felt I belonged with them. He said they couldn't have some of the conversations they do without me. We spent quite a bit of time chatting. It was great to hang out outside of the office. It made me happy to see that as long as he's worked here, he didn't jump away from our chats to catch up with other people he'd run into. He stayed walking with me.
The next day he wanted to show me more stuff, communicated more, seemed eager to talk. Which I took as a good sign of a friendship forming. But then he went on vacation...
I sent him a text reminding him that he and his family were invited to my Husband Creature's Bday BBQ. I wasn't surprised not to get a response. I kind of figured it was a long shot and he'd mention it when I saw him at work. I was surprised the day of the party to receive a text from him! He was too tired from his daughters soccer tournament otherwise they would have come. Which was honestly unexpected. I had other people flake altogether and still no explanation as to why. So I appreciated that.
And in all honesty with how crappy I felt about myself that day, I'm kind of glad he wasn't there. I felt all swollen and sweaty and a hot mess from running around with an AC that didn't work very well. I actually got the impression that was why he didn't stop by himself. He said he spent the day baking in the sun and was hot and sweaty.
We had a nice chat this morning about the party and his vacation. He said I looked well rested. lol Not sure why that seemed odd. He seemed disappointed he didn't stop by the BBQ. He said he's been getting headaches, to the point that taking steps feels like each step is pounding in his head. Poor guy. But that was about all of the interaction we had because he was having a short day. He had a doctor's appointment.
Colorado - Things with Colorado are weird. And I'm not sure how to feel about it. I always worry he's ghosting again. He said he never would do that again. But I also know he's going through a divorce. He said he announced it to the kids after their 10 year wedding anniversary. Which was last week. It's so crazy to me that people can work at a marriage for so long and just give up. Too many people I know are getting divorced after 10+ years of marriage. It's scary. And posts like mine about my Obsession probably make me a prime target for failure in my own marriage. But my Obsession is ebbing. And I love my Husband Creature. We have our issues. This crush on Obsession has played a slight factor in some of the good as well as bad going on in my marriage now. I appreciate my husband more because of it.
Anyways, Colorado isn't speaking to me. Hasn't responded to my messages since his own vacation, at least not more than one or two messages. He dropped off last Monday. I'm sure he's just taking his time to process what's going on. I mean his whole world is being turned upside down. I think I'm only slightly confused because he seemed so nonchalant about the whole concept when he told me they had made the decision to divorce. Maybe it hit him. But at this point. I've made my efforts to reach out. So I'm giving him his space.
The Drummer - I just happened to review an old post about The Drummer and I still can't believe how that whole thing went from nothing to something. But it helps me realize that my intuition on how a guy feels about me is pretty right on.
So if it's still right on, I shouldn't worry if I annoy Obsession. I can tell he enjoys our conversations. He doesn't seem to avoid interactions with me. We have A LOT in common. In regards to how we feel about politics at least and some of our moral views. I get surprised when he comments on things and I find out we're on the same page. Most people are so liberal its sick. But... sometimes I wonder, is he concerned? Thinking I'm reading too much into his conversations with me... lol I overthink everything...
Anywho... I'm tired. I'm having a hard time focusing. My mind is wandering all over the place. I've been somewhat productive today. But then another part of me is just staring at the computer screen not sure what to do next. Guess I should attempt to finish up what I'm working on.
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