Getting back to the grind

So I'm back to the grind. I went to the gym tonight. It felt great. I can tell I'm more out of shape then ever and REALLY need to start getting back to doing it for myself. Today at work I had a rough day. Earlier I mentioned my anger problem. Well when you ask God to work on something, He brings things in your path to help you work through it, He doesn't just bring you out of it (well most of the time anyways hehe). So I've found I've been more aware of my anger. I have never gotten to the point of hitting anything since I hit the garage door a week or so ago. But I've wanted to, and I've held back, which is a step up but still. I'm off the subject. Today I was angry, I could feel it whelling up inside of me and so I decided to go for a walk. When I got back my entire attitude changed. I was more relaxed and happy! Then I remembered how going to the gym was a great release when I was getting over another ex. Since I'm struggling with letting a new one go, maybe this is a step in the right direction eh?! I think so. So I did cardio only. I feel great!

Lets see... God has been doing a lot of talking to me as of late. Or at least I'm finally opening up my ears to listen. It feels good to be taking some good steps in the right direction. I'm always afraid to be too happy because something always pulls me away. But this time it's different. I'm doing it for myself. Not to be a better person for anyone other then myself and God. To like the person I look at in the mirror. Yeah I have never liked the body in the reflection but I have been happy with the person looking back, but lately that hasn't been the case. Lately I'm repulsed by my appearance. But I can feel a change. Another chapter in my life is about to begin.

Well I need to stretch....