I love my family

Here it is, Sunday evening and I'm filled with love for my family. My sister and her family came over for dinner. I love my neice and nephew! They just give so much love, and are willing to accept anything I can offer them in return! It's been a while since the family has gotten together and today was just a fun filled day.

Ironically I've been struggling the last couple months. With all the changes in my life I should realize how much God is doing in my life. But sometimes change can feel overwhelming. I enjoy evenings like this because they are taken at face value. A good time with the family. It gets my mind off of all the other every day issues that I've been facing. I stopped everything to wrestle and play with my neice and nephew! It was a nice break from things.

I've faced a lot of truths this week. Painful truths. Truths that break my pride, and cause all sorts of uncomfortable soul searching. God has been trying to get me out of this slump. Well I would hope, I can't guarantee, that whatever it was that I desperately needed to get through my thick skull is finally starting to penetrate! God can do infinitely more then I could ever dare to ask or hope for in my life. I need to keep focused on that truth.

I feel like I'm starting to finally experience the new year sensations. I'm surprised that it's taken me this long to start looking ahead considering I usually get inspired in the new year! I finally feel something changing inside of me. Sometimes it's painful to realize that change is necessary, and other times it can be exciting to face the new possibilities.

Right now I feel a sense of excitement. Whereas before I felt a sense of dread about my life and where it was going, a sort of depression. God is faithful, he continues to work in our lives even when we are throwing ourselves pity parties.

Well it's late and I have an early morning.