I don't want to be here...

So I'm stuck at work and I don't want to be here. It's Saturday! Who should ever have to work overtime on a Saturday!? Well I know there are lots of us. We have to do what we have to do to get the job done. But right now the atmosphere of my workplace is that of a slow death... I'm watching everything decay around me. The stench of despair, hopelessness and anguish make coming to work a misery.

I do believe the company I work for has just taken a DRASTIC step in the WRONG direction and it is causing the slow death of the company as well as the employees in it. This sounds so morbid, but it truly is rather amazing how quickly it took a turn for the worse. I had just made the choice to update my resume' the week before last and never got around to it. Earlier this week I had decided to make time for it this weekend. Then midweek it felt like I had no other options. I still have a job and I still have projects that need to get done. There is so much despair in all of my co-workers, even if we did make it through this tough time I don't necessarily see that any of the current employees will still be here. Including myself. I think I have seen 1/6 of the company that actually doesn't mind sticking it out. The other 5/6 are ready to walk.

I believe it was God who gave me the prompting to update my resume' and now I know there's a good reason for it. I am updating it this Sunday and will start looking through the paper to see if I can find something. I am not even sure what to look for. My career has taken a mold of its own, and I have a few different directions I could go. I ultimately want what God wants for me. So I am praying that He gives me wisdom. I don't feel that moving is what needs to take place. I feel strongly about working closer to home. Less of a drive and more time for myself. Right now my commute is an hour there and back every day. I waste 10 hours a week driving to work and back!

Well speaking of work, I really do need to get busy if I actually want to get done in enough time to enjoy my weekend plans.