Flip Flop

We're still waiting to hear when the services will be held for my Father-In-Law. Hopefully we'll find out by the end of this week. My Husband Creature seems to be handling it well enough. He's admitted to keeping himself busy on purpose.  

So Obsession sent an email... on his own! A week ago today. I was pretty melancholy that day so it didn't really hit me till later that he actually thought about me enough to initiate correspondence. It had been a few weeks since we'd seen or talked to each other and I was feeling a little pulled away because of my annoyance with him. Since then there have been a couple of emails back and forth for different reasons. 

Yesterday he made me happy by responding to a note I scanned to his email address on the scanner from his area. "This can only be one person... Hello Clandestine... lol" Something about that response makes me happy. That he finally recognizes things as being from me. And his response makes me think that it put a smile on his face. 

A coworker is retiring and turning 60 and having a big ole party. She text me over the weekend to find out if I was available to take photos of the event. It sounded like a ton of fun but I am going out of town that same day early in the morning. Turns out he was invited. I have been curious if he *AND* his wife planned to go. He's close with this coworker so I would imagine so. Then I think of the awkwardness of me being the photographer at the event. Part of me hopes my trip gets cancelled and I can be the photographer after all but then another part is grateful for a good reason not to be able to. The other thought is if he comes without his wife... That could be fun. lol 

I sometimes remember back to one of the first work events I went to and he was there. He asked who my people were and said he'd often wondered. And he kept close to me even though he knew a ton of people from the years on the job. How I asked if I could get a photo with just him. How I shared that song "Fun" with him. I wonder if he remembers it. 

I wonder a lot of things. Mostly I wonder what the heck he thinks of me. The fact that he took time out to send an email means it's not one sided. "It" being the friendship. As far as attraction. I still feel that it's pretty much one-sided. He may wonder from time-to-time but I would imagine it's a fleeting thought and not like my own obsessive thoughts. 

And yes, the title of this blog is my overall ability to flip flop on my feelings about Obsession in general. For a few weeks there I could care less about him. As of this week it seems I've renewed the obsession. 

Obsession has said a couple of times he'll see me the next time I come down or that he'll see me soon. I keep bringing up the fact that it might be a bit since he's doing his WAH days the day I come down. He always reiterates... "I'm sure I'll see you soon..." So next week will be over a month since I've seen him. And surprisingly it's only been two weeks without any communication. I need to keep my distance. I can tell...