Are we Friends versus Coworkers?
I'm starting to lean towards just coworkers. I sent him a couple messages during the 4th of July holiday and nothing = Coworkers.
I'm pretty sure he's aware my dad is in the hospital since his entire unit (except for him) has text me asking about my dad or how I'm holding up or if I need anything except for him = Coworkers.
I keep thinking maybe he feels its inappropriate. Maybe it is. I'm not sure. Maybe he's not sure what to say. Makes me sad, disappointed and really shows who my true friends are. I'm sad because I really just want to talk to him. Share how I'm feeling. Can I really be the only person in this duo that considers the other a friend?
So these are the reasons I'm leaning towards Coworkers.
His daughter is getting her tonsils removed so it's possible he isn't aware of my dad being in ICU. In fact, it feels odd that he hasn't sent a message. So much so that I keep thinking he must NOT know! Yet, part of me wants to ask him if he knows. Another part wants to write him off altogether because this is the proof I need that I'm just not as much a friend as I thought. I'm just a coworker.
Yet his personality is one to show compassion, be concerned, ask questions = Friends.
*sigh* It's a sad revelation.
Maybe I'm just sad because my dad is in the ICU. My emotions and nerves are raw and I'm just being too sensitive. I've been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love for me and my family. And yet nothing from Obsession... Am I disillusioned? Have I really thought we were friends and he had just indulged me?
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