Why is it...

Why is it when I'm ready to swear off Obsession something adorable happens and I get all giggly and obsessive again!?

The day started with me being late, so everyone was in his office by the time I got there. I was ok with this because I was in the mode of "swearing him off". *HA!* I did put a random cheesy pic of Minnie and Daisy above his desk the night before (I had found it in our offices and decided to put it up in his office as a joke since everyone told me to just throw it away). I decided to ask him how he liked his picture. He asked if I was the one that put it there. He said he was going to leave it up because it looked like they were admiring him and he needed more admirers. I chucked and said I don't think you need *any* more admirers. He got embarrassed and laughed knowingly.

Later he was chatting about his investments via work with me and the divorced lady and how he lost money and if it went down far enough he and his wife were going to divorce so he could pull the money out. He teasingly said, so I  may be on the market soon, how about it *insert my name*, wanna get married? Without hesitation I said "Absolutely! just let me know when". The divorced lady that likes to tease him about hooking up, seemed surprised. lol

We've had a lot of fun interactions this morning that led us to close physical contact. He helped me and my fellow office-mate move a big table and he noticed our name plates are more modern, none of that fake wood look with gold plates, we have the black with gray/silver writing. He was admiring them but our bodies were in close proximity. Neither of us moved away as I shared how we ordered them. He helped me review a certificate of appreciation I was making. Again, side by side, touching.

He was cutting the tag out of his shirt and I told him he could take his shirt off so it'd be easier, we'd be fine with that. ;) He laughed and said "No way, you don't want to see that, I don't look like your husband!"

Thankfully I heard his voice and minimized this window because he ended up being in here. Asking for white out and teasing me that he knew I must have some because he knows I make mistakes! I laughed when he couldn't figure out how to use the whiteout tape and told him, see you must never make mistakes if you have no idea how to use whiteout tape. I took over and our hands touched... *shivers*. He went over to my calendar photos and checked them out while I fixed his "mistake".

I went to check how his scans were going and I mentioned that I was there to verify the whiteout tape worked. And his coworker was saying how many people does it take to make copies? That she could have done this for him but for some reason he wanted to do it himself with the two of us. I said, well I'm not helping. Just admiring the view. ;) She caught it but I don't know if he did.

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Ok the later part of the day didn't help... I had to run off but Obsessions unit were talking about cheating and he asked me if I could take my husband back after cheating. I told them it would be hard to but if there were certain circumstances I may be able to take him back but it would be REALLY difficult. He mentioned that 5 years ago he may have considered an affair with someone. This was when others were in the room. He wouldn't share if it was someone we'd know. But I got the impression she is still around and works at the same place as us maybe just not our location. I had to run but came back and asked if they missed me, he wasn't out where everyone else was but I heard him in his office saying "always". I asked for an update on the conversation. Ended up having an 1 1/2 - 2 hour conversation that ended with me and Obsession having a one-on-one talk about our relationships. It was awesome! Fun, entertaining, educational. I was thrilled that no one came back. Normally we get interrupted when things get interesting. It came up that I have thought about inviting him to coffee but know it's inappropriate... He said exactly it might be a lot of fun but he wouldn't want to open himself up to that. Not that he didn't trust himself but just that he wouldn't want to chance it. I found out he's struggling in his marriage only in the fact that he felt after 18 years he'd be in an easier place. I shared that each person is always changing so you have to grow together. There will always be something new to work through. He was complaining about his wife's lying over weird little things and always being fake when out in public or with friends. I shared that maybe it's a defense mechanism from her childhood. He hadn't thought about that. He said maybe part of his problem is he's calloused. That he could just walk away after 18 years if he found out she cheated on him. He shuts down when he's angry or hurt. I worried about how long I was talking but in the end it was exactly the conversation I have always wanted to have with Obsession.

I sent him a text on my way home about traffic and only got a thumbs up. It's gonna suck when I move to the local office 100% of the time. No more fun conversations. He's totally different via text or email. *sigh*