The whole lot of questions are waiting to be asked now! I told Obsession there were a lot of questions I had for him, some were inappropriate and had to filter through. I could tell it peaked his interest.
*Updated 11/17/18*
The above was written Oct 25 ...
A lot of time has passed and a lot of time without getting to see Obsession. I've missed him. I saw him one time this last week. And I just found out he doesn't return to work till November 27th. *sigh* I'm sad about it. I haven't text him in a while and for some reason I did. I was baking cookies and sent him a photo of mine on the stone before putting them in the oven. Feeling foolish. Not expecting a response. He responded. Ironically enough he was baking cookies as well. He sent me a photo of his. I asked if he was bringing any in. That's when he said he wouldn't be back to work till the 27th. I told him to enjoy his time off and teased him that he should watch The Greatest Showman already and he said oh yeah, thanks for the reminder. I didn't send anything else. Felt like I was trying too hard to keep the conversation going. Or I was afraid I'd say something inappropriate like I'd miss him. ... I will though.
I made a point to chat with him last week on that one day. I stopped by before anyone else came in. He gave me a compliment. Said I had a great smile and a bubble personality. I wish I could remember how it came up. But it was sweet.
I really wish I would have asked him in that moment if he missed me while I was gone for the week prior. Again... Not appropriate and really not something I should ask.
I keep remembering the last time I told him he was attractive, and his sing song response. I can't remember the exact reaction but it was him being flattered that I said he was attractive. There was another moment he mentioned that his biceps aren't as large as my husbands and I laughed a little too hard and he got all embarrassed which made me laugh even harder. I had no intention of making him feel bad but I couldn't help but laugh because he isn't built like my husband who works out twice a day and is very buffed out at the moment. Or the moment we talked about video surveillance since my hubby and I bought ourselves the Ring doorbell that records motion. Obsession was thinking about getting one of those. He was mentioning that people could hack in to our video feeds. I was saying I wasn't too worried about that. He joked that if they got access to his bedroom they'd turn it off and make a note never to hack there again since the bedroom was so boring lol I was laughing and Obsession made a point to reiterate he was just kidding. lol
Then, there's that guy that came into a group conversation and I was mentioning the rumor that I heard he could come up with something good to say about anyone. I asked him to go around the room and share what he saw good about each person. He said Obsession was a great dad who really loved his kids and was really good with them. For Obsession's office mate the guy said that she was the most caring person he knew, that she put everyone else first, even to the detriment of herself. He said I had an infectious personality and smile. That I make a lot of people laugh. And he added that "Obsession" is always smiling. He went on to say about the others but it threw me that he brought Obsession into the mix for my comment. It made me self conscious that it's because I'm always around Obsession or that he knows Obsession likes my personality. I guess it's the first point, since Obsession doesn't go out of his way to see me, or say hi or bye. *sigh* Sometimes I feel like such a fool.
Obsession talks about driving by my house all the time. That he sees my house more than he sees his own. I mentioned we made a change and he told me not to tell him. That he'll try to figure it out.
Am I the fool? People in his office don't seem to tease me but is it something teased when I'm not around? They tease Obsession about his "girlfriends" in the office. Oh and his office mate didn't know he was getting his kitchen remodeled. I was surprised because he'd mentioned it a few times to me. And his office mate and him seem really close. Oh and his supervisor is going through a divorce and she keeps joking about having sex with him. To the point that his office mate gives him lectures about not encouraging that kind of teasing.
I've asked him a few times if he's too busy to chat and he always invites me in with eagerness. Am I fool to think he enjoys my personality or is he just being nice? I don't know... I don't think he would tolerate my texting, he seems nice enough when he responds. I think my insecurities are making me question all this. So aside from being sad I don't get to see him for a week and a half, I do believe we're friends. I'll leave it at that.
Colorado has all but removed me from every area of his life. Not sure how I feel about it... At first I didn't mind. Even when he deleted me from Facebook. I sent a quick hello on hangouts and now he shows as offline all the time there too... I wouldn't be surprised if his number has been changed at this rate. I mean I knew he was taking time away. I didn't realize it meant ghosting again. Part of me misses our chats. Another part doesn't.
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