Why is it that I am still so worried about my ex being ok with me? I am so frustrated that I even care whether or not he talks to me, or looks at me, or how he responds to me. I am so pissed at myself at this very moment! Why couldn't I be a stronger person? Why can't I be independent and confident that my decision was right? And not care how he treats me!? I mean he's not even treating me badly! Yet I want more. How selfish! How annoying!
It sucks having to see him daily and I just want to be able to have confidence in who I am. I want to have fun and not care so much about how he treats me, or even if he's ok with me. I hate going back and forth with my feelings for him. I need to seperate myself from him but I can't. I am stuck seeing him on a daily basis.
I want to run... I want to run far away. I don't want to hurt like this. I don't want to feel that he's getting over me when I'm so far from being over him.
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