A LOT has changed

I have no idea how to write about all that has transpired since the day before Valentines Day. It's hard to even imagine writing a quick update.

Colorado and I have stopped talking. I did that for my Husband Creature.

Obsession is now labeled "Distraction" and my Husband Creature knows about him as well.

Right before my Husband Creature found out about Obsession things had shifted, and once he found out the shift continued. To the point of some annoyance and distance intentionally being put between us. It doesn't feel the same. The fun and enjoyment is gone. I believe that's a God thing. To save my marriage. But I'm ok with it as well.

In this moment I feel pulled away from everyone but my Husband Creature. Especially at work. People say things and I just get quiet and don't really care what they have to say. It's not worth it anymore.

Even meetups with my coworkers aren't as interesting to me. Sadly I was invited next week to go out to dinner with some coworkers and I checked with Husband Creature and he said it was fine, but then asked if my "Distraction" was going. My heart sank. To think my Husband Creature needed to even ask me that. It made me sad, embarrassed, disappointed in myself.

After I thought about it, if Obsession was actually at an outside event would I tell my Husband Creature? I think at this point I would do it for sure. But before he knew about him? Would I? That made me sad too.