Why oh why?

So I'm STILL crushing on the older guy. Well I go through stages, days where I could care less and days where I wonder why the heck he hasn't made his move. He enjoys my friendship, I know this. I think he likes me and even wonders "what if?".

He calls me last night to give me a heads up on his stressful weekend. When I show empathy he tells me he hasn't even shared what's going on with "arizona" as he calls her. He tells me with dread that she's coming out, no if-ands-or-buts about it, and that he blatantly told her he has to work and then complains about how he's going to have to hide this new business plan he's working on. (Long story. I'll try to sum it up below.) It doesn't hit me till after our conversation that no wonder she's not taking "no" for an answer! It's the week of Valentines Day!

Sum Up: He's taking a chance to start his dream carreer. Apparently he's attempted it before but technology wasn't where it is today. He's doing well and it looks like it's moving further along then before. Though he has not told "arizona" about it because he feels she will put the idea down or something. Yet, he will call me multiple times in a day with the tiniest updates.

This seems like an odd dynamic for a relationship, at least a healthy one, which this appears not to be. I shouldn't be surprised. He's older, never been married, maybe this is the reason? He keeps people at arms length. He's intimate with her. He's open with me. I think I'd prefer the intimacy. hehe Honestly I care about him. If he were to kiss me, I'd kiss back. Yet I'm not willing to gamble and make that move.

Ever since I shared with him I was interested in him physically he's invited me over to his place a lot more. Has even invaded my personal space more and more. He seems to take his time with things. I sometimes wonder if making a move is one of them.

I flirt with him still. Even send him little pickup lines, or tease him about wanting me. He gets a kick out of it, then tells me I can be a trip. Now how does one take that? I'm still not sure.