So it's been a while. Time has not allowed any updates. I enjoy the security of blogging anonymously. I miss it. I've taken to writing in an actual journal though. It has been a nice release. I'm amazed at what has happened in the last month.
I have been extremely selfish with my last possible months with my ex. We are basically dating again. I know it will have to eventually end so I am using his moving out-of-state as the cut-off date. Which he has yet to make a decision to move! Which brings me to what if he decides not to move? I am still in love with him. We've been sleeping together on the weekends as of late... We have even worked it out for us to spend the night together. Once my brother found out only because he chose to sleep at my place instead of drive back to his house late one night. Yet I have thrown myself into this but I'm noticing lately (in the last week or so) that he has been more reserved. I think he is having stronger feelings for me and wants to keep his distance. I have no clue what's going to happen if and when he moves. I feel foolish but am too selfish to think any more about it then what I've already discussed. Yet I've noticed (in the last week or so) I've become dependent on him. Which sucks! I need to keep my distance now. But it's hard.
Well I can't update more then that... bye for now...
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