Law of Attraction

I'm still not used to this concept of having multiple guys showing interest at the same time. I guess it's because in high school it was hard to imagine even one guy liking me at any given point. I've just recently seen the number of men showing interest increased, or maybe it's just that I'm acknowledging them rather then explaining them away. Looking back I'm amazed at how insecure I was in high school and can see how that affected what I attracted or I should say... didn't attract.

Ever hear of the Law of Attraction? Well I'm a fairly new believer in it. I don't quite understand it fully but believe that it is very real! I wonder at times how it is I'm attracting certain things in my life. Other times I can look back and see how my focus attracted certain outcomes. Now it's learning to be aware of how my current focus affects what comes next.

So it's not like these men are falling all over themselves for me. But they are pursuing me. It feels good. But for the most part each of the men don't mean very much to me and have no future or long term compatibility with me. But it has been kind of fun.

It is odd that Colorado still holds such a big part of my heart. I was talking to my friend on the way to work and not that I was talking to him about Colorado but as we talked about stuff I realized how much of my heart I’ve given to Colorado without us even being in an official relationship. Colorado isn’t one of the nicest people in my life. He has stated that if he and I stopped talking he wouldn’t be affected. Whereas I know I would be disappointed.

I’m not sure how I’m going to nickname these guys… My friend that I talked to this morning was well I would call him an ex but we were only together for a month. He recently called and asked me if he was a good kisser. Sadly my memory of his kisses weren’t good. Either way he is currently dating a girl. I’m not sure how long it will last. He seems to be calling and leaning on me more then I would expect a guy to while in a relationship. Last night I talked to him and he had to go and said he’d call back. Circumstances happened that took me away from my cell for about 45 min. I came back to 4 missed calls! Then later that night I left my cell in my room while watching tv in the living room and again was left 4 missed calls!